My hope would be that in blogging about this and opening up this part of my life that I can in some way help you or someone to understand that it's OK to hope, it's OK to wonder, it perfectly understandable to be angry and to deal with abandonment issues and on and on an on. I haven't posted for a bit about this and I'm not sure why.  I think in part it comes from having felt I was "the little secret" which even now as an adult some still hope to keep that way.  I do need to clarify though th...